its really funny how, when the more you strive to be the best, you end up further from where you aim to be.

i look forward to something that seems to exist only in the world of my own.

each morning i wake up to a brand new day.

each day i end it with a dream.

a dream that i hope would be realized.

Everyday i think to myself that today would be different.

my world would be filled with all that i wish and hope for.

everynight i carry the same dream back to bed.

as much as i wish to pull myself out of this abyss

it is still goin to take some time.

so please be patient with me.

no reasons why i feel the way i feel.

i blame it on the body.

or maybe its my inability

to let go.

bring on e smiles.